Reflections of 2016

 “Take the time to sit in the quiet and think about the year. Sound unnatural? Even more of a reason we need to do it.”

-Grace Livingston 

  

I’ve been thinking a lot about this past year. It went by really fast at times, and really slow at other times.

We decided to move from Pacific Beach to Vista. We decided to buy a house, and not just any house, a fixer-upper. The family Prius died (after 7 years) and I bought my first new car. Oh! Did I mention? We also found out we were pregnant and expecting our first child!

If there is anything else that falls in the category of “adulting” that I haven’t done so far this year, please tell me about it. I still have 2 more days of 2016, I’m sure I could squeeze it in!  

There have been a lot of moments this year that have stretched me further than I would have thought possible (literally and figuratively! I mean, being pregnant is no joke!)

I realized there are a lot of things I can still learn. I did try to rush through some of it, but I was able to be present and just soak in other moments as well. 

I will always remember the struggles and triumphs of this year. 

Okay! But what about next year!? 

When I think about New Year’s resolutions, I think of them as personal goals that people make for themselves, hoping they have what it takes to make it. But what about when you throw in an unknown… like say, a newborn baby. What happens then? 

I have yet to meet my son. Who will he be? Will he sleep? How much of my hair will I pull out? Will I ever be able to exercise again? Hah! These are just a few questions that I find daunting when faced with the task of making a New Year’s resolution.  

Instead of trying to control an aspect of my life, or to change it, I think this year I will choose to be in it.  

I want to be all in. 100% 

I want to be present. 

I want to let myself feel how I am feeling. I don’t want to rush through difficult times, I want to learn from them. I want to remember sacred moments and feel the weight of them. 

There is so much yet to come…

I can feel it!

Bring it on 2017. I’m ready for you.